I am so lost in what surrounds me. Not in the typical sense but I am lost in a special way, just like my language gone wild. I know the way home but the problem is that I don't know my real home. I'm simply lost and don't know how to get out. I have already written that for an isolated system, it is impossible to get out of its state circules without outer help.
I have some recent intuitions which I can't just connect them altogether. I know that there is reality. I know that people can individually have intuitions. I know that the Islamic states are not advertising the correct version of Islam. I know that I need to follow my natural life cycle consisting of marriage and so on. I don't belong to any community as I started to think differently. Now I don't align to any community to find friends or whatever. The life is more individual than ever which is against my nature.
But tonight I got an insight from my very close friend that I have to act. When you act there is place for failure but there is no possibility of regret. Regret is times worse than failure. Failure gets forgotten. Failure gets compensated but regret is there forever. Think of a girl gone you never told her that you like you. Can you ever get out of the regret state? If you told her and even she overreacted and declined you, you only had failure without regret.
So act.
